Bleh, so.. my kid threw out my drug benefits card for the month, so unless I come up with some cash, I can’t get my meds apparently. Most of this month’s money went toward the kiddo’s birthday.
So basically, I’m opening a few emergency commission slots so I can get my medication (otherwise I…
Guys please. those are so cheap.
i’ve already reblogged once today, so why not again?
My fiances gotten quite hurt and it means a couple of days off work… we usually live paycheck to paycheck allowing no room for error like this and… im entirely sorry to ask but a few donations truely wouldnt hurt… I’ll pay it back through picture or… somehow some awsome update… I… hes the only one…
i don’t normally reblog things to my main blog, but my Mate is also in the hospital, and while i can’t donate money or offer any kind of real help, i do have some followers here that may be able to, or could even just reblog this (but you don’t have to, of course).
i feel really bad that i can’t do anything useful, but i hope this helps you and your fiance even a little…
Lightning strike near house.
Using library computer.
Rain in hospital (unrelated to lightning strike).
i want to cry but i am empty.
i want to scream but i am empty.
i want to hurt but i am empty.
i want to heal but i am empty.
i want to rage i want to kill i want to draw blood and feast and devour and maim and… empty myself.
i want to feel i want to stop feeling.
i want more i want nothing.
i want to curl up in a ball hidden away from life i want to EXPLODE and show EVERYONE what i am who i am where i am why i am…
but i am empty.
i am empty not because i have nothing inside of me
i am empty not because i am a blank slate
i am empty by choice
i am empty because of a conscious decision to keep myself under control
i am empty because i am scared
weeping in the void where there are no tears and no fire and no light and no warmth and no comforting dark no final oblivion no… anything…
anything but me.
all of me
none of me
i am one i am many i am none i am all
i am writing this and yet MY fingers do not move
i… do not know who i am.
but yet i do.
i am empty.
i… am sorry.
SHUT UP. ALL OF YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU SHUT UP
i am not.
i am hereiamgone.
i don’t know.
i never know.
i NEVER KNOW.
when is a door… not a door?
when it is a jar.
i am a jar.
the door is ajar.
a doorway into the empty.
out of the empty.
through the empty.
i am the empty.
i am empty.
i am a door.
Send a number and I’ll draw my OC wearing
1. A fanny pack
2. Socks and Sandals
4. Tripp Pants
5. A stained wifebeater
6. Snapback and basketball shorts
7. Camouflage cargo shorts/pants
8. Mullet hairstyle
9. A meme (preferably rage comics) shirt
10. A fedor- I mean trilby
11. A snuggie
12. Toe shoes
13. “Cool story babe, now go make a sandwich”/”u mad bro?” T shirt
14. Corduroy pants/shorts/skirts/anything
15. A Hawaiian shirt